Honestly,

I didn't know it was going to hurt this bad. I didn't even know I cared this much. Turns out, its does. But at least now I know what love is, and maybe I'll recognize it next time it comes around.. if it ever does.

I thought about you two, together. And right there my heart stopped. And then I thought about you two, together, continuously.. while I thought nothing of it this whole time. And I couldn't even breathe.

That's really all there is to it. I don't eat nor do i sleep. And if I do sleep, it's bad sleep.. cause I have to lay in that bed where I always used to lay with you and its hard. I just want you to know that it's incredibly hard.

Asleep

I hate having priorities. I just wanna do what I wanna do. Like, maybe just lay down with him and read. Sounds like a bloody good evening. :]]]]]]]

Different day, Same ol' shit.

With a slight twist.

Begin to rewrite me

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I have so much on my mind, but can't seem to put it in words.

HEY you.

Your fucking stupid. Honestly you think breaking up other people's relationships will benefit you in the end ? It won't, because I know you. Your just one of those poeple that hides their emotions but when its too late, they sabatoge to get things back to the way they were. Even if it was just a little crush that was going nowhere.. maybe just maybe you could have made it work out for you. But your dumb and inconsiderate and you need to focus on your own problems and your own damn life. Who the HELL do you think you are.. no, I can't believe you even had the nerve to ask him to do that. Your fucking dumb, he doesn't like you, get over it. Now to be completely honest, I'm looking out for you. I know you, and I know the games you play. I know that you try to sneak in to the other side and try to spit your game. I KNOW YOU. And just knowing that alone, you should know your not getting anywhere with this one. But on a different note, what if it did work out for you ? How would you feel about yourself, how many new enemies will you have gained ? Is it really worth it to come up on something that you had to force feelings into ? Would it last very long ? Or are you just looking for a quick one-nighter.. or in your case a quick couple-weeker. Just to build you up and send you fucking CRASHING down like they always do ? But I'll let you think about that one ! So have fun with your little comments, requests, homework help, library time, quick rides, making a fool of your self, and fucking up like you always do. Becuase if you read this and decide to call me the bitch.. I'd like you to take a step back and just recall the things you've said and what your trying to do. Then we'll see who the bitch is.

Freak These Tales

Today was an up-and-downer. It seems like everytime I walk into my French class my stomach drops into my ass and by the end of the 50 minutes, I feel so relieved. It's not even that hard, but since I'm not that used to being challenged so much, it's a problem. But it's just something I need to get used to. But besides that I had a crazy talk with Ms. Aguero today.
My relationship was not even comparable to hers but we had a few things in common. And one thing I noticed was that when your with someone that you truely love.. or you think you do. You don't notice many things going on around you. Like you don't notice a lot of other people that you noticed before.. sometimes you don't even notice your friends. You tend to neglect a lot of the people and things around you and it sucks. I never really thought of it before, but it's true. People can get extremely scandalous under certain conditions. And I'm not trying to be that type of person. Ever.